Bringing in the New Year and the New Challenges

We all approach the new year differently. Some make resolutions (some to be kept, some not), others make lists (ME), others still act as if they cannot improve upon the previous year so they just keep trucking as they were. Regardless, do what makes you comfortable. The new year is about you, and you only. This is what I am going to try to remember in 2015 🙂

Today I was sitting in church (when in rural America, one goes to church with their mother) the pastor was talking about being human and being content. Well, about 5 seconds before the sermon started I found out that I got a rather un-wonderful grade last semester. So, i’m sitting there feeling sorry for myself as well as angry and embarrassed and all of the other things, and the pastor starts talking about getting over hurdles and staying content and accepting that we make mistakes. I will keep you all from my entire coping process (also, I’m definitely not finished wallowing in self-pity and anger), but I decided how I’m going to try to approach this new year and all it’s new challenges.

Keep going. Don’t forget you are human and will make mistakes. The biggest positive change we can make will be moving past those mistakes. So many people get caught in the self-pity and wallowing and it becomes impossible to move forward. Well, I am going to wallow, and then move on. M, please hold me to this when I wallow too much, as I indefinitely will. We all will, we are human – remember?!

So, happy 2015 everyone! Embrace the challenges of this year with a little better attitude and we will all no doubt be ready to take on 2016 in 361 days in a little better place than the great place we are in today.

Enjoy some of my favorite pictures from 2014…all mixed up and all pretty great memories 🙂

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Time.

There is a high chance this post will make no sense.  But its long over due (and thank you, L, for the gentle promptings to write even though I blatantly ignored them).

I moved back to Baltimore and I have no idea what state my relationship is in.

Since being back, I have lived a month that has felt timeless, and not necessarily in the good way.  I have learned small things (don’t buy a cordless drill at Target on sale; it will only work on cardboard walls and even then, it will probably tear out a chunk of the wall) and let go of big things (expectations of others).  I have reinforced my beliefs on things (refusal to lower your standards and expectations for yourself) and evaluated my feelings on others (just what a relationship should entail).  And, guys, I have cried way more than I care to admit.

But I have also laughed uproariously with old friends, played with a gleeful child that reminds me there are pure souls in the world, and felt truly loved by friends, family, and mentors.  I am also reading voraciously, thinking as much as possible, and talking to as many individuals as I can.

And finally, after a timeless month, I am ready.  “Today is the beginning of the rest of your life.” “When one door closes, another opens.” “You raze the old to raise the new.” and all the other cliches about living your life, making each day count. Insert them all here.

Now is the time.